Dedicated to Violet and Olivia

Dear Violet and Allegra, It's a breath of fresh air to have school, work and personal life pause for a little while to the point where I can afford to write a letter to the both of you. For the past three days I had finished preliminary exams and so I could get away with laying on the couch all day and do absolutely nothing. This may be good to give my brain a rest, but it isn't good in terms of the fact I am without inspiration to make this letter good. I feel hazy, and I'm not used to it. Stress is what motivates me, and it's strange considering I don't use that stress to write good letters but to accomplish other tasks. I love writing letters to the both of you and wish more than anything that you can get the best version of my almost-seventeen year old self, but this is the best you can get. I'm only hoping my thirtysomething year old self is light years better to the hot mess I currently am as a teenager. Somehow, as I was in a period of stress, I manag...

Dear Number 2, A crush I have barely interacted with, so I'm not actually sure if my feelings for you are true. At the moment I am sitting directly across from you on your right side, and you're talking to ___ about your 4 and a half hour long study session. I wouldn't believe anyone in our year could actually take this studying thing seriously, so it turns out you're impressed me quite a bit. I've heard about your devotion to running, and if you were any other person I would be discouraged to have an interest in you, but because some magical force of nature made me fall for you I find that tolerable. I actually embrace it. Perhaps that would make me motivated to be fit for once. You're attractive. You with your pale skin, almond-shaped eyes, auburn hair covering a side of your forehead... I can't help but take little peeks of your face and stare until you look back at me. That's the moment when I divert my gaze and turn my head around in attempt to ...

Dear Leg and Vi, A time ago I published a letter not dedicated to either of you, but to a past crush. As embarrassing as it sounds for you to read the letter I posted it on this blog for a purpose -- to teach you about my experiences as a shy girl who has crushes on the most impossible of people. I modeled it after Jenny Han's 'To All The Boys I've Loved Before' (hence the title), and I wrote it with the underlying wish to have them revealed to my crushes just like what happens to Lara Jean in the book. It isn't likely to happen, but the thought lingers. The person whom I wrote the first letter to in fact happens to be in my drama class, and because people get really close in drama through acting in productions and go on trips, I plan to write a letter to him with the same tones, but in a more subtle structure of wording. A little risky especially since he has a girlfriend, but I've never admitted my feelings to a crush in such a confrontational way. I want t...