Any Way the Wind Blows
Dear Violet and Allegra,
Three months have passed and we're into a whole new season. To further emphasize how long it's taken for me to sit down and write this letter, today is also the last proper day of high school for me. While I do acknowledge that it's an important event to reach in my life, I've been craving for this day for a long while.
Every adult I've talked to has mentioned how much they envy me being at my age. "High school was the best time of my life!" "I had the best experiences ever at that age." "Best four years of my life." I do acknowledge that I've had countless good experiences throughout my high school life, like the school ball and the drama productions I've participated in. To put it as minimally dramatic as possible, I feel like I've been trapped for a long while being here. Fair point, I don't wear the color of independence with flair, but in order for me to do that I really need to be thrown out there into the open and fend for myself. I don't care how much I'm doomed for failure, but it's part of the process. I just need a good blend of patience, determination, and the ability to conceal my embarrassment.
I'm just tempted to jump into a time machine and skip over graduation, exams, and working over the summer holidays to see what I'm like on move in day. That's another thing I haven't updated the both of you on: I've decided on my university and have a confirmed hall to live in. For the previous couple of months I had been indecisive between Auckland University and Victoria University. I leaned toward the latter more in terms of the environment and life there, but after speaking to a family friend who did the courses I wanted to do, I changed my mind to the former, since it's a more science-oriented school and will impact my career once I graduate. I do think the environment impacts the way I study, but in this instance it's better to consider the long-term effects than the short-term ones.
I'm gonna miss my friends and the spoon-fed life I have living with my parents, but I think a change is long overdue. Whatever way the wind blows, I'm excited for what the future has to offer.
Love,
Maui
Three months have passed and we're into a whole new season. To further emphasize how long it's taken for me to sit down and write this letter, today is also the last proper day of high school for me. While I do acknowledge that it's an important event to reach in my life, I've been craving for this day for a long while.
Every adult I've talked to has mentioned how much they envy me being at my age. "High school was the best time of my life!" "I had the best experiences ever at that age." "Best four years of my life." I do acknowledge that I've had countless good experiences throughout my high school life, like the school ball and the drama productions I've participated in. To put it as minimally dramatic as possible, I feel like I've been trapped for a long while being here. Fair point, I don't wear the color of independence with flair, but in order for me to do that I really need to be thrown out there into the open and fend for myself. I don't care how much I'm doomed for failure, but it's part of the process. I just need a good blend of patience, determination, and the ability to conceal my embarrassment.
I'm just tempted to jump into a time machine and skip over graduation, exams, and working over the summer holidays to see what I'm like on move in day. That's another thing I haven't updated the both of you on: I've decided on my university and have a confirmed hall to live in. For the previous couple of months I had been indecisive between Auckland University and Victoria University. I leaned toward the latter more in terms of the environment and life there, but after speaking to a family friend who did the courses I wanted to do, I changed my mind to the former, since it's a more science-oriented school and will impact my career once I graduate. I do think the environment impacts the way I study, but in this instance it's better to consider the long-term effects than the short-term ones.
I'm gonna miss my friends and the spoon-fed life I have living with my parents, but I think a change is long overdue. Whatever way the wind blows, I'm excited for what the future has to offer.
Love,
Maui
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